Complacent War

Do you ever find yourself fighting to stay in the comfort zone. As if your life's mandate is to remain confined within walls and boundaries that you've known up close and personal. Confined being the key word. You start to feel agitated trying to hold on to a world you learnt to control, where you decided that happiness means peaceful, untempered, lifeless days. It's safe and familiar and predictable and comforting. Until it isn't. Until it's nerve wrecking, mind numbing, time wasting. The comfort zone is where you die slowly and completely off duty, and not in the usual ways of death. But more conivingly as it snatches away your dreams, your drive, your sense of adventure, your strength to stand for something bigger than yourself. Indifference is just a mask that evil wears in the comfort zone. Basically, it's when and where you stop caring. Giving up on really living in the moment. Even though you're still breathing physically, you're actually just going through the motions, but going nowhere. Your entire world begins to centre around yourself, still your heart bleeds for another fight, one more try. But you forgot how to care, so you just think about yourself. Every thought turned into comparison, bitterness, perhaps envy. It's self pitying, lonely too. You stay stuck in your own mind, drowning in thoughts that could kill anyone's Spirit. But the only recipient is you. This place you once sought comfort and determined to build your life upon, is also your greatest enemy's technique to steal, kill, and destroy. It can be as simple as, caring more about yourself and your own well being, than anyone else. Always. And you hate it. And it hates you. Yet, you remain engrossed in this exhausting cycle you still choose.

There are always many reasons, good excuses that are true. But deep down you know, you should make time for the things you care about, for what is truly important and pure. If only you could remember what they were. 

But then, Jesus always comes to the rescue, just like He promised to do. As God floods your mind with memories and Words that are His Truth. You're reminded of His care and of the great lengths He's gone to bring you here. His love, so magnetic, it draws you in and holds you painstakingly close. You acknowledge that He's never kept a distance, even when you blindly drifted on. He's always in the same place, right here wherever you left off. Closer even. 

Sometimes the very thing that is "your thing", that defines your purpose on our Earth, is the very thing that gets taken, if you're not careful about whose words to let in most. Humans were created to care, we were created to love, we were created to do more. Because Our God, the Uncreated One, made our blueprint to carry and reflect Himself through us. So when we live a life, that is barely a life at all, our Soul begins to starve and we'll take anything to fill the hole. Stuffing ourselves with little white lies of how passivity is the safest place to roam. Forgetting all the while, to seek the One whose name is engraved upon our hearts. The comfort zone, is anything but comfortable. Don't be a prisoner in your own complacent war. 

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.”

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV