Stay

You tiresomely, and finally, surrender...

Ok, I need Jesus.

I need Him back in my life. 

I just need You, Jesus.

But Jesus, never left.

The only way to lose, is to walk away.

Just give up and walk away.

If it's so easy, then why did I stay?

I've let people get in the way.

I let human relationships, or the lack there of, precede my relationship with Jesus.

Needing the right people in my life became more important than needing Jesus first.

"My life" became more important than Him.

But Jesus, never leaves.

The Rescuer always remains, He always chooses this way. But I've given up on more than I dare to relay. I think I gave up a little bit everyday. So why did He stay, when He knew my old ways?

I had forgotten the truth, when the Truth never strayed. I had given up on love, when Love was still on display. It seemed easier to desert, when Emmanuel felt so far away. Out of reach, left without talent or sense of peace. "I have no One Thing" I'd religiously repeat. So I believed my internal gossip that my place is not around here. 

It's hard to be honest about your lost faith, when you're completely surrounded by good people so full of it. How do you save face? It's not easy to admit that you've buried your dreams and threw out the keys to your locked away goals.

You think the only way to escape, is to keep yourself alone.

But then I'm left with just me and she's not making any sound words. 

When, one day, you suddenly realise, 

You're actually not on your own. 

You never are.

You never were. 

You never need be.

Because Jesus, will not go. 

"You unravel me, with a melody

You surround me with a song

Of deliverance, from my enemies

Till all my fears are gone

I'm no longer a slave to fear

I am a child of God

I'm no longer a slave to fear

I am a child of God

From my mothers womb

You have chosen me

Love has called my name

I've been born again, into your family

Your blood flows through my veins

I'm no longer a slave to fear

I am a child of God

I'm no longer a slave to fear

I am a child of God

I'm no longer a slave to fear

I am a child of God

I'm no longer a slave to fear

I am a child of God

I am surrounded

By the arms of the father

I am surrounded

By songs of deliverance

We've been liberated

From our bondage

We're the sons and the daughters

Let us sing our freedom"

(No Longer Slaves - Bethel Music)