Mosaic of Thoughts

So many thoughts travelling through my head, some I dwell on some I let pass, some so fast that I am unaware of their presence yet they tend to manoeuvre my very response. Some are memories, some are lies, some are random, some are doubts, some are lovely, some are dark, some are Godly, some are not. 

We live in two realities: the outside world and our own personal inside world, what others can see and hear, and what others are enigmatically oblivious to. We all know that ignorance does not mean non-existence. Our thoughts are real, sometimes more real and relevant to us than what's on the outside. Our inside drives our outside. But our outside can define our inside. 

At times I fear the inside for there is so much unknown, so much undiscovered depth, so much mystery, yet so many unending possibilities and capacities. 

It is frighteningly beautiful.

Maybe it's not that I fear the inside, but I fear the potential that I ought to embrace. 

As dreams make complete sense when they're in play, but are ridiculously random when we wake, so do thoughts make sense when they're just thoughts, yet often truth can be revealed when they're said. 

When I was merely thirteen, my teacher called me aside, sat me down and tried to explain to me that I was just too passive. He was big, I was little, He was powerful, I was intimidated, He was somewhat accurate, but I shut down. Sometimes what people tell us, though they may be right, can often cause us to act in exactly the way they are telling us we already are. For years I have lived passive, I listened to what others saw on the outside and began to believe on the inside. 

I know I am not alone in this.

It is crucial, in order to help others grow, to speak life, to speak positive, to speak into what is still a seed. Our words over others can be nourishment to enable them to flourish… or they can be destructive and unhelpful.

No one can grow healthy on their own, we need each other. Allowing the outside and inside to collide. It is evident that our thoughts often destroy us when they are kept secret, and our words to each other can fuel or distinguish our abilities. 

We need each other (and of course we need God). 

Un-need of others is not a sign of strength, that is more a reflection of stupidity and false pride. We need each other and we need to love one another… 

Only if we want to live healthy and purposeful lives that is. 

My personal challenge is to live aware of the realities of the outside and the inside, and to know when to listen and when to delete, when to reflect and when to speak: my mind a two-way filter. The trick is allowing God and His Word into both, unreservedly. But also being conscious of the fact that this is a life-long journey and there will, most assuredly, be bumps along the way...

P.S.

Classic wisdom from the movie Zoolander: 

What do you do when you fall off a horse?

(I'm sorry, I'm not a gymnast)

YOU GET BACK ON!